My Give A Damn’s Busted

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I cannot speak

I cannot cry

The tears won’t come

My eyes are dry

 

I have no words

I see no light

My hope has dimmed

Tis black as night

 

My soul is numb

There is no zing

Encased in stone

I feel no thing

 

© 2017 Ana Ramsey

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A Blessing for the World

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I wrote this after the Boston Marathon bombing and it’s time to send it back out into the world.

May the Gods of Heaven and Earth comfort the grieving and welcome the dead into Their realms. May the Spirits of Earth and Fire, Air and Water hold us in their arms and strengthen us against the hurt we all face. May our Ancestors watch over us and guide us with their wisdom. May Justice be swift and Healing be gentle. May Mercy, Love, and Peace fill us all with their Light. And may we all be able to look into the Dark Mirror and see the face of another as our own.

I’m Back and Better Than Ever

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I disappeared again. Which shouldn’t surprise anyone considering how crap I am at keeping up with any sort of regular blogging. I didn’t intend for my absence to extend this long, though.

This last year was a bit of a mess and my depression and anxiety walloped my ass something fierce for large parts of it, but I’ve come out of it stronger and with a better sense of who I am what my place in the world is. I lost a lot that was precious to me in the process and I won’t lie and say it doesn’t still hurt like hell even a year later.

I gave up on writing for a bit; I was in just too dark of a place to see the point of it. But I’m back at it with a new piece that I’m keeping close to my vest for now. I’m also looking into self-publishing CHILD OF MISCHIEF since I don’t see any point in trying to find an agent to take it on or a publisher who wants urban fantasy. I’m hoping to be able to get that out the door before too long.

The house renovations are continuing apace. We finished the bedroom and walk-in closet this past spring and our big project for this fall is getting our chimney repaired since parts of it are crumbling to dust. Over the winter, I’m hoping to get somebody in to build my library bookshelves and reading nook since neither my husband or I are up for tackling that challenge ourselves.

I know I say this every time, but I’m going to try and blog on a somewhat more regular basis, though I absolutely suck at keeping to any sort of schedule.

 

The Con Job

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A couple of weeks ago I read a bit of fanfiction called The Cyborg Arm Job by CopperBadge. It’s a Leverage/Captain America cross-over fic that was really good. So good in fact that it spurred my brain to demand that I write my own Leverage/Captain America cross-over fic despite the fact that it’s been about a decade since I last wrote fanfiction. I only intended it to be a quick little story about the Leverage crew meeting Eliot’s idol, Captain America, at a Comic-Con, but it ended up being an eight thousand word beast that is getting a lot of love over on Tumblr where I originally posted it.

Summary: Eliot jumps at the chance to meet his idol even if it means spending the day at a geek convention. But HYDRA thinks the con is the perfect place to take Captain America down once and for all. Now the Leverage crew must team up with Captain America, Black Widow, and Falcon to prevent a lot of innocent people from being murdered.

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I wrote a thing

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At last the weary light does fade
Giving way to silvery moonlit hues
Ink black shadows merge and spread
Darkening the earth and hearts of men

Howls echo through still night air
Setting wise ones to tremble in fear
For the Wild Hunt is on the prowl
Either flee and die or join the chase

Gaze long into the mirror of black
Find and embrace the monster within
With blood-stained claws and sharp-toothed grin
The terrors of the dark hold no sway over you

~Ana Ramsey

September 2015

Just Another Day of Being a Writer

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The rejections are starting to trickle in and, honestly, it’s not as bad a feeling as it was when I was querying Where Demons Fear to Tread. Oh, sure, there’s still the low-level dread of “What if nobody likes it? What if I missed the boat like I did with Demons? What if I’m just not good enough?”, but those are all normal fears that plague every writer. Or at least every writer I’ve ever heard/read speak on the subject.

Last time I was querying agents I used a site called QueryTracker, which was immensely helpful for keeping track of where I was in the process with each agent. Unfortunately, you have to be a paying subscriber in order to track queries for more than one project and I really wasn’t up for creating another account just for CoM, so I simply started an Excel spreadsheet in order to track agents. I still use QueryTracker in order to find agents and read the comments from other users who’ve queried those agents (I also check out the Absolute Write Bewares, Recommendations, and Background Checks forum for in-depth discussions about agents.). So far, my spreadsheet is much more helpful and concise than QueryTracker was even if it is a bit more work to set up.

Right now I’m struggling to write this synopsis. Nothing says Hell (Hel?) quite like trying to condense a 315 page book down to two pages and make it not only understandable, but interesting as well. I think I’ve pretty much got it nailed down, but who knows… We’ll see what my writing partners have to say about it.